Attempt

That which attempts to take me from You seeks to make captive my soul, imprison my spirit, and formulate a new path, a path without light, without hope, without You.  My heart, awake of such a deviant movement, reconciles the soul in love, pushing it to act and react in faith.  That which wishes to take me from you is the plight of apathy, the disgust of despair, the indication of disrespect.  Movement taken with such disregard is movement which causes to ache, cases such soreness that I wish not to move which later causes its own problems of atrophy.  In Your arms, I am alive, I see the warmth of the sun shine upon my face, I see the world as beauty, me as significant; in Your love, I know life to be holiness, to be stillness among mass chaos, to be gentleness among wrestling of hatred and distain; in Your reality, I come to life for I am life in love, in hope as I walk the steps of peace, as I shout the words of understanding.  All of this disappears when that which seeks my soul captivates me for a moment for I forget, I look away, I dare not walk down an unfamiliar path for fear has taken control of my being and that which I see, that which I hear is nothing but a ploy, nothing but an illusion to keep me lurking in the shadows like a theft in the night though I have stolen nothing.  Taken from me is nothing though it feels like everything; I am lost within my being, cowering, searching for solutions, searching for anything to help me know I am alive, that I am not alone and yet my surroundings tell me otherwise.  Around me is darkness, so dark I can’t see even my own hand in front of face, awkwardly I move this is when I hear it, the familiar sound, the sound of Your voice calling my name.  Still I can see nothing yet when I turn I feel something and I am not afraid.  My heart beats with anticipation, excitement fills my soul, memories flood my mind, I know where I am, I know who I am.  Life has begun in me, that paths that I have chosen have strengthen my faith and yet I sit in darkness?  Why?  Why do I sit in darkness?  I have forgotten that the light I need to see any path is not external but rather internal, it is my soul, my hope, my faith which lights my path; a path which I know You will walk with me, a path which I choose, a path with or without thorns yet always with Your love.  That which seeks to take me from You knows not our connection, knows not Your inspiration of my soul.  I may forget, I may walk a path of fear from time to time, but my heart is strong for faith is its cornerstone and I, my person, am erected in Your love.  I hear the call of Your voice, I feel the warmth of Your touch, I see the love which You are and promise to always be; thus I now move with confidence, I move with courage to face that which I have created, that which my mind has fabricated as truths yet clearly are lies compounded by criticism and insults.  Petrified by my own mind, I rise to walk, the chains which once suffocated me fall to the ground without the use of a key for they were no chains at all, simple figments of my imagination. Freed by my own hell of the mind, I take my steps in faith and gather in the wake of compassion and hope, my movement slow but purposed.  Nothing can take me from You, You simply  will not allow it and for that, I thank you.  To be loved the way You love me is so monumental that even when the world screams, when the world trows punches, when the world no longer cares, You do, You will, You will love always and call be back home to You.  I will grow stronger, more focused so that which seeks to take me from You will never again take me into the darkness, never again take me down an unfamiliar path of which I fear, never again will that which seeks to keep me from You succeed in its efforts for my heart is stronger than I know and Your voice echoes in every valley.  The valley of lost souls, the valley which I momentarily called my home, will never again see my footprint, never again feel my sorrow, never again claim my being for I have walked through the darkness, I know understand the light from within is unmatched, Your greatness is unmatched and yet You claim me as your own.  That which attempts to take me from You knows not the motivation of my heart, the integrity of my soul, the motivation of my being to remain in the warmth of Your love, to spread Your love that all may know, all my claim their greatness, their faith.  Today I come out from the shadows that I may claim Your love, that I may be overwhelmed by Your compassion, that I may leave a mark that others need not step foot into the valley of loss, that they may take claim to Your love, now and forever.  That which seeks to take me from You, seek no more your antics have been revealed as illusions and the Father revealed as a reality of love.