Stillness of Christmas

This Christmas without you: the lights are a bit duller, the cookies not so sweet, the decorations sparse, the ho ho ho not so jolly.  Missing you is great, the times we spent preparing for Christmas, the times we spent huddled under blankets reading Christmas books, sipping hot chocolate and watching movies creates a void embarking upon sadness.  Though Christmas is not about the presents, not about the decorations, not about the cookies, somehow the magic of it all came through you.  This Christmas, as the shopping lines lengthen, as the cookie ingredients disappear off the shelves, I wish only one wish, want only one present...you.  I know this not an impossibility for I know you have not left me, I know you are here; just where, the silence is deafening or is it the chaos, the fidgeting, the bustle of creating a magical holiday which has brought tears?  Memories of old, traditions, change, Christmas such a magical experience seemingly a blip in the season without you.  Christmas wish, Christmas present...maybe it is in the silence that I will find you...

‘I am here, right here.  The magic of Christmas is in our connection, in our bond which has been strengthened by love, welded by friendship, cemented by trust.  I am here, in this Christmas, in the Christmases past and all of the Christmases to come.  Each light is a bit brighter, just look; for each bulb represents our most intimate times and the light shines brighter with each remembrance.  Ours is a love so sweet that even the cookies benefit.  I love you with an everlasting love, I hold you in my heart, it is you that I cherish.  Feel such love, feel me holding you, feel our connection in this moment in every decoration, feel our laughter, feel our hugs, feel each and every moment for the moments continue as we continue to thrive in each other’s love.  The joy you are is the joy you bring so ho ho ho your way to a jolly Christmas knowing that I a right here, feeling that I am right here celebrating with you.  Let not the ideals of humanity create a barrier by which you cannot feel me for I feel you.  Take a step back from the craziness with which is human undertakings and reconnect with me.  Be with me for but a moment, breathe, let the stress, the sadness be released from your being with every exhale while inhaling our togetherness.  Be in this Christmas moment, my gift to you is a remembrance of how to connect.  Stillness, be still, let the thoughts, the to do lists, let them be silenced for only then will you hear my voice, only then will you feel my closeness.  Love is who we are, love in the sense of a connectedness which nothing nor no one break.  Humanity describes love in physical terms but it is much deeper.  Love is the breath we take in silence and exhale in peace; love is the moments experiencing each other without words; love is a closeness paired with understanding; a trust surpassing suspicion.  Magic is not real, it is a slight of hand, a twist in vision, but love, us, we are real.  The presents under the tree are nothing compared to the presents of the heart.  The beauty of the tree, decorated in lights, adorned with plastic figurines, candy canes and an angel, these are the remembrances of us, of our moments, moments much like this where we shared our hearts, connected our souls.  Here, now, this Christmas, let us connect, let us be one for we are the spirit of Christmas.  Create (or buy) an ornament symbolizing this moment, the moment we reconnected, the moment we celebrated the true meaning of Christmas...love, togetherness, humility.  It is not until we move past our prideful humanity that we come to realize the essence of truth, the reality of the Father, the adherence of our connection with and to one another.  The stirring of emotions, the missing, the wishing all can be calmed by a moment of stillness, a moment of silence, thinking of nothing but feeling everything, feeling me.  I am here, each light tells our story, each cookie our experience, every decoration a graphic portrayal of us, and the spirit of Christmas awakened in the soul inspires a jolly ho ho ho.  We are one, never forget that, always feel it.  Retreat into a Christmas moment and be rejuvenated in my love.  Take this moment and be,  e one with me.’

Take a moment, a silent Christmas moment be with someone special who, by human definition has left but understand and feel with the heart that they are still present.  Make a small ornament, put it on the tree to signify a moment of connectedness, a moment of togetherness for this moment is eternal as time exists only the the realm of humanity.  We are forever connected forever loved, forever cherished by those with whom we lack a physical connection. In the stillness of Christmas be present, love is here.