Invest in Love

You mean everything to me, and though it feels like the world is crashing down around me, I know it isn't for my faith rejoices in your spirit.  That which is unseen yet known comforts my breath and eases the sting of newness without you.  Change frightens most people yet change is something I have always embraced until now, for until now, change was a happenstance, a misdirection and now it is a permanency.  This struggle is real, calamity is my soul...wanting you to be free, be home, yet wanting you back here with me.  Reliant upon my faith, I feel your presence, I feel you joyful, without pain and reunited with loved ones and for that I am ever grateful.  The closeness I knew has compounded for even in the blink of an eye I feel you with me, I feel you wrap me in love, allowing me to rest in your peace, allowing me we be centered in your heart.  Our hearts speak, the connection of our heart has been electrified, creating an electromagnetic draw of togetherness and oneness; this I feel, this I know and yet it is with my humanity that I struggle.  The human mind calls finality; with no cards, no calls, no physical visits, the patterns of the future are in question. What was no longer is, what will be looks much different from has been thus reeking havoc on the fragile mind.  Developed from concrete necessities, the mind reaches for tangibility, seeking that which it deems 'real'.  Realness manifested in the physical is but a representation of that which the mind knows note or slight of the hand the human gift and misdirection serving purpose of consequence.  Reliant upon the trickery of the mind, sadness overwhelms my person, I fall into what was and what will no longer be, tears escape down my cheeks as I neglect my heart and love, for a moment in the mind.  Things are different, someone is missing, things not the same...these the hauntings of mind; pearls of torment wishing for one more of this and one more of that...no time now to let the heart speak, let the heart feel.  Closeness reserved for the heart, closeness in conjunction with faith is an intertwining of souls which settles the restlessness, settles the confusion of a physical departure, settles the doubts.  Struggles in this newness come only from the limitation I create, the limitations of my ego attempting to safeguard humanity's precarious definitions of survival.  Proven time and gain, faith out measures the ego; the measure of faith is experienced in the totality of love.  This I feel, this I know for I have experienced such love, such peace, love and peace which I know come from you, from our magnified connection grounded in faith and now experienced as a calming reality attempting to transform my life.  This want I feel I need is limited yet the connection, the love you offer is limitless; so why do I attempt to choose the first?  Because it is 'known' and an established means of coping yet faith calls not for coping but living.  Walking by faith guarantees life wrapped in love, life wrapped in peace, life wrapped in our togetherness, a togetherness which you have proven as you breathe into my lungs love.   Filled with love, joy is what I see, joy is what I know, love is who I am and, as I embark upon each moment, I note your presence, note your love fused within my soul and I smile.  Just as the roots of the tree grow deep into the earth, providing nutrients, providing stability, your love is interwoven into my soul providing me with such nutrients as humility, connectiveness, and love while ensuring my growth in faith.  Faith combats every doubt, every sadness ignited by loneliness for the realness of faith comes to life in the power of us.  Twin souls connected in love, bound in faith, never apart.  Our twin souls intertwined as one, knowing not where one starts and the other ends...twin souls, our souls immersed in the Father are blessed souls ready to listen, ready to hear the call of the other and react in love.  Crippled by humanity I will call on your strength to carry me through doubt, through sadness, through restlessness into the love I know, the love I feel as truth.  The world is not crashing down, the world is just awakening, awakening in love, our love, twin love.  I am blessed to know such love, love which will sustain life in humanity yet carry me into the reality of Christ.  Today is a choice, I choose faith, I choose the feelings and love of faith that our closeness may continue to grow for our hearts are all ready one.  Abandon, I will, my sense of mortality that I may rest in the truth of everlasting life, everlasting love with faith as my rider.  Together we have always been, together we are in this moment, faith the indicator of love, love our promise.  Without in this world I will never be for you are my heart and I feel you near.  Bear with my humanity, I will struggle, but I will always return to my heart for there you are present, loving, holding, guiding me.  Twin souls marching on, acting upon faith while breathing love as only the Father has shown.  Joy is your heart as it is now mine for I seek not the course of the mind but rather the course of the heart...twin souls sharing life, sharing promises, sharing love.  Your love settles my hurt.