Hold Me Close

Hold me close I do not wish to be alone for the nights are dark and cold, no chosen path have I.  Lost among the huge obstacles of this world, I find myself wandering, wondering where I am and where I should go.  My mind keeps me spinning until I find myself spiraling out of control; lost among thoughts, lost among strangers, wishing to be held close.  It seems the more I fight, the faster the spiral and so I choose to keep still.  Frightened with my lack of vision, I scurry to find a flame; a small flame, a large flame, any flame will do.  My mind eases not the darkness with its classifications of haunting shadows, monstrous blackness and threatening noises.  Where are You?  I need to be held, my nerves are a wreck, I can’t be alone in this moment.  The stillness brings about a coolness which quickly passes unto a coldness and my body petrified by fear.  Wanting to move, needing to run, I find my muscles atrophied and unable to run.  Alone, in this darkness, where are You?  Panic sets in, nothing looks familiar, even the shadows begin to cast their own shadows creating more fear.  Just when I believed all hope was lost, I looked out and one shadow became familiar; it was my own shadow, a moment of solace.  Wait, I am not alone, the anxiety begins to overtake me again, then I hear, “You have never been alone, I am right here, holding you.”  Again, I look, the shadows that I feared were but my very own cast by my turning away from the Son.  The commotion I thought real a mere projection of the mind battling for control of my person.  I bought into the tricks of the mind for my doubts blinded my heart and fear became my companion, or so I thought.  You were there, You never left my side, You held me close, You were and are my true companion.  I know there will be other times when doubts rise above my ability to trust but I also know that Your love conquers any and all doubt.  Hold me close and don’t let me go, of this I will never doubt.